I feel like my mom hates me?

When I start talking about problems, like people, she'll say "Oh grow up." "Get over it." "It doesn't ****ing matter!" And I just sit there with tears in my eyes. She'll say "Go to your ****ing room, crybaby." As I'm running up the stairs, I yelled "YOU WOULDN'T CARE IF I FREAKING DIED, WOULD YOU?" And she just told me to go to my room. She's saying she had a hard day at work blah blah blah, etc. That's what just happened a couple minutes ago, but it does happen a lot. She says "Grow up or live with your father!" "Oh look! The Mini-Amy *My big sisters name* Stupid things that I shouldn't get upset over, but I'm crying right now. Point is, things like that happen a lot. But then there's those occasional times when we're laying on the couch together, or eating crab legs together, or shopping, etc. And I really love her, but I can't deal with this!